Beach memories

"Would you walk to the edge of the ocean, just to fill my jar with sand
just in case I get the notion to let it run through my hand." -Band Perry

I love this song and everytime I hear it reminds me of very special things. I love the ocean and miss being down by the water with my toes in the sand.  I love feeling the sand under my feet and how it feels so squishy.  I love sunwarmed hair and the coolness of the ocean as you dip your toes in for the first time. I miss the salty taste of the ocean in my mouth. I love the smell of coconut suntan lotion or Kyndall's Bath & Body lotion!
I love so many things..... special secret birthday gifts which always made me smile. Great memories at Myrtle Beach

Michael's Schwinn Bike he made me

My brother Michael worked at Yesteryear Cyclery, Inc. in New Bedford.  He helped Kim Camara build and repair bicycles. Well for my 10th birthday in 1976, Michael gave me this one of a kind bike.  It is a special frame and he made up the name himself. (sorry forgot the name)  I loved the Irish kelly green color and loved my banana seat with stick shift on the frame.  I loved that bike.  It sat in my mother's basement up until a year ago when she passed away.  Michael took the bike back to Kim/Yesteryear and they ended up hanging it from the ceiling in the store as a type of museum. I am happy to say my bike is on display!  Lots of memories on that bike.  Love you Michael!

When I sit alone and wonder what life holds for me in my future, I don't know what will happen but I do know that I will be very happy with no regrets.  Life is too short not to be happy.

Memorial Day for Tyler

Wow!!  I actually have folks who read my blog?  That is awesome!  Thanks Anne & M for reading about me and my life.  I hope it makes you smile sometimes. 

I have to take a moment and not be happy, smiling or excited because Memorial Day is this weekend.  I am sad because it takes a special meaning to me since Tyler, my nephew, was killed in Iraq 4-30-09.  While non-military families look at the American Flag as just a flag, it takes a special meaning to me.  I get very emotional when I see the huge flags flying held up by Fire department hook & ladders.  I know he is a special gold star shining down on me from above.  He whispers to me sometimes to "be brave" and his saying of "Tough Times don't Last...Tough People Do".  I feel so much love, honor and respect for anyone who served in the military.  I am so proud to have been brought up in a military family and taught that our freedom we have in this country is based upon patriots who died to defend our freedoms. Tyler is a patriot.
Please look at the American Flag flying this weekend and remember those who gave their lives to defend what that flag means. 
"The bombs bursting in air" - EOD forever...

My fortune today reads...

You will have many friends

  when you need them.

I believe that just might be true today, of all days. 

We will have to wait and see...

"One" derland- Big Milestone Reach

Zac Brown Band - Keep Me In Mind Video

I love this Chris Young Song "You"

KIFFMCSC-Knight of the Inferno Motorcycle Club of South Carolina

I just posted a picture of me wearing my Knights of the Inferno M/C vest.  This means I am officially a club member.  The club is for any Fire, EMS, military personnel. It is also open to certain individuals that are upstanding individuals.  My husband joined the club a year ago after meeting a friend he was going to school with.  I joined the club after obtaining my MC license this past spring.   Now I get to belong as social member and look forward to being full member someday in the future. All I need now is the bike! I also am the club treasurer which means I have to answer for any money added or subtracted to account. 

The last meeting I went to was a mixture of fun and horror.  It was held at a local restaurant and it took over an hour for the waitress to serve us.  The fun is how much these guys make me laugh, especially the club president, Joe.  He has this “Joe-ism’s” as I like to call them that come out of his mouth and are hilarious.  I guess working for years in EMS, police and being in the military you pick up this one liners.

We are looking for new members.  We want more participation when we do have team events.  Hopefully word will get out and our membership will begin to grow. 

so close!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am closer to "One-derland" than I have ever been.  I haven't been this size in over 25 years.  How I have missed it!  I sat here tonight watching Biggest Loser and weird feelings came over me.  I use to sit here and watch it wishing it was me losing the weight and participating in the challenges.  I know I would make an excellent team player.  But I was also hearing the weight these girls are and saying to myself...that was me!!  She is what I use to look like?  How come I couldn't see it as clear as I do now?  How come looking in the mirror all I saw was the same person I always was.  I never saw the fat but yet I saw the fat.  It use to get in my way for a lot of things.  Some of the things I was very aware of,  but others it was more subtle.  I know restaurant booths were an issue.  The hostess would look at me (us) and see oversize people so would want to seat us at a table.  After trying to squeeze into a booth more times than I care to imagine, I came to the conclusion that tables were better.  I like being able to sit in booths again. I could tell on JetBlue when I went home this summer.  I had so much more seat belt left to tighten up and I wasn't worried if I was crushing a skinny person next to me.  Matter of fact, on the flight home I sat near a heavy set man.  I said to him, "It's ok if you touch me".  He laughed and said, "that is a first!"  I realized how it sounded and turned red while trying to explain I wasn't coming on to him.  He understood and then showed me his wedding ring and said it didn't matter anyway...he was married. LOL!!!  I also went on a walk for Obesity last Saturday morning.  It was the morning of the Susan G. Komen Mountains to Midlands.  I missed it last year but my Mom was much more important than the walk.  This year I didn't sign up for a team but was going to go and support my co-workers.  I woke up too late and decided to go help to the Obesity walk in Spartanburg.  I wanted to show my support for this very worthy cause, close to my heart- literally. Plus I had just seen Dr. Ross last Wednesday and after telling him I would be more than happy to speak in front of potential patients about my journey, I wanted to show I was genuine with my offer.  Dr. Ross also called me Doty.  I laughed and he explained that all the other adidas patients he has calls me Doty.  I told him that is okay with me.  I think two more ladies from work are going to have the surgery.  That will make 9 of us.  Our own little support group!
I still sleep with my sleep apnea machine.  I think it is addictive because the sound and cool air puts me to sleep.  I will going without it on the weekend.  Maybe I will feel better when I wake up. 
Things are going great.  I have so much energy and renewed spirit that I feel like I am bursting at the seams all the time.  I love life again and hope I show everyone I care about just how much they mean to me. Y'all know who you are!  Some of you even read this blog!

Update

I am off to see an eye plastic surgeon today for my chalizion.  It is a small cyst that is on my left upper eye lid.  I went to the eye doctor yesterday for an eye exam and found out that I have 20/50 vision and need glasses for things close up.  I can’t read a medicine bottle to save my life.  Now with glasses I can but that means it is another sign I am getting old.  He saw my eye lid and suggested I have it removed for cosmetic reasons.  As soon as he said the word “cosmetic”, I began thinking of mascara, eye liner, and eye makeup that looks funny due to the lid on that eye.  Plus it is full of puss so that can’t be good after all these years.

My weight is still going down and that is a good thing. I currently weighed in this morning at 216 which is 74lbs from the beginning of my weight loss surgery. My body has a way of keeping the weight for a few weeks, get my period, and then I start seeing the scale go down. I still am losing my hair and instead of a thick bun when I pull my hair back, I can tell it is much thinner. Rick pulled a huge “rat” of hair out of the tub. It was disgusting how much hair was causing the water to drain slower. I hope it comes back soon.

I look at a number on the scale and try to think back to the last time I remember seeing that number and it has been over 20 years ago. Then it takes me to place where I was 20 years ago and because I was younger and thinner, it should make me happy to reflect back. But it doesn’t. It makes me mad to think how naïve I was to think that a man could make me feel good or bad. I didn’t know myself or how to be me. It was all in the way he treated me whether or not I felt good enough. Now this man was my first husband and as much as I thought I loved him, I know deep down I shouldn’t have married him. My self-esteem was shot long before meeting him. If you meet me, you think I am a happy-go-lucky girl but deep down I have emotional scars that still tear at my heart. They will always be there and some days, the scars cause me pain, but I have learned how to suppress those feelings. I would rather be known more happy-go-lucky than a mean cold bitch.

After my divorce, it took some time, but I learned to love myself again. I also learned that men are dogs. They really are! They either are hungry or horny so give them a sandwich!! (LOL) But after being with a bad boyfriend, and praying to God to find someone that could love me as much as I love them, I met Rick.

getting use to new body

There are certain things that fat girls can't do, or can't do gracefully.  One of them is cross your legs like Mary Hart does.  I think the last time I tried to cross my legs lady-like, I might of been posing for a school picture in fourth grade.

I just caught myself sitting at my desk with my legs spread wide open for comfort and my old fat girl position.  Then I realized that I don't need to sit like that anymore and tried to cross my legs.  It worked. It feels awkward but I can actually get one leg up and over the other one!  It may not be Mary Hart but they are crossed!

**side note that although I haven't lost any more weight recently, I feel great and have been walking the treadmill during lunch everyday.  As long as I keep myself healthy, I really don't care what the scale says.

Three things you need in a relationship

Here is my take on the three things you need in a relationship.  The first one is trust.  You have to have total trust in the person who has your heart.  That means not just trust that the relationship is strong and can withstand pressure from outside influences, but trust that my heart is totally in love with the person and nothing will break that bond.  Trust also that when things are bad and it seems like there is no way out, that they are the strong one and have your back.  Trust that whatever is shared between the two of you, it is only for you to know so the intimacy is strong. 
The second key component in my eyes is communication.  Communication is both listening and talking.  You should want to share your thoughts and feeling with each other.  You should be able to tell the person you love what you need and when you need it and how you need it so they can fulfill those needs. I am someone who flees during confrontation so the communication to me has to be put in a delicate way so I don't run and hide.  I also love the non-communication that is shared.  A simple touch on the knee when driving down the road.  A hand over mine to say he cares too. Those are the little things that I love to share.
The last is RESPECT and I bolded that one for a reason.  You have to give respect to get respect.  A relationship is doomed without respect.  It ties into the other two things to make a relationship work.  He has to know that I have flaws and I am not perfect but he respects me.  He has to also respect me as a person who has values and morals and does not judge me.  I need someone to respect me as a woman and not treat me like a doormat.  I will treat my man like a king as long as he knows when he dies...the kingdom is all mine!
Oh an I just needed to add this one too....Laughter and smiles.  Every relationship needs laughter & smiles. I would not be able to have a relationship if he didn't make me laugh and smile.  That is what gets me through my days.  I love it when he smiles and laughs because then I smile & laugh right back.
They are pretty much all equal in value but those are the things I think make a relationship work.  Money is not important and putting the toilet seat down is meaningless.  Don't sweat the small stuff.  On the other hand if he is very romantic and mushy when you are dating...don't expect it to continue when you are married! I'm just sayin'

Babies

I would love to have a baby, but it just wasn’t in God’s plan. No doubt we have tried and we just might get pregnant now that I have this weight loss. My fear is being an old lady and getting pregnant. I want to be healthy and strong enough to raise a baby, toddler, pre-teen. There is nothing more in this world that I would want than to hold a baby in my arms and have that unconditional love for them. I know I would be able to love adopted children or babies from an egg donor even without coming from my body. It is all a matter of motherhood. I remember Nancy Griffin got me a little Donald Duck beanie hat when I was pregnant in 1997. Someone else got me a book about what to expect when expecting. I was so happy to have finally gotten pregnant that I told everyone and was so excited. I guess I jumped the gun because I loss the baby 8 weeks later. It was not meant to be and that was a good thing. My boyfriend at the time, was cheating on me and I guess the stress took its toll on my body/baby.


There are several girls here at work that are pregnant or just had a baby. I am very envious of them but am so happy for them too. There are other woman like me, sitting here wondering why them and not me? I guess every month I am reminded that I am not supposed to have children. It hurts.

Poker

I kind of wish I knew how to play poker.  Not for the gambling part of it but just to learn it.  The 3rd Annual Tyler J. Trahan Poker Tournament is in a few weeks. It is always on tv and I try to follow along but it seems like there is math involved and I hate math.

New haircut

before

After

I went and gone done did my hair. (southern speak) I have not cut my hair in a certain style since 2008. I wanted to cut it since I am going back to Massachusetts for a visit and a wedding. Plus I have lost a total of 60 lbs and feel like a new me. I like to think I have been “sexy-fied”

I love hearing the compliments which boost my self-confidence. Rick loves my haircut because I didn’t trim too much off the length. I know I look good because I fit into a size 18- 20, which I haven’t done since my first wedding gown.

I also started a medically supervised gym program through the local hospital. I was the youngest one in the gym the other day. A cute little old man on the machine next to me introduced himself and was being nosey about why I was there. I love old people.

I am on my way to new healthy me.

Dazed and Confused

It seems like the older I get, the worst my memory is getting.  I know I should have more vivid memories of things that happened in the past but for the life of me, I am forgetting quite a bit.  "I don't know Jack" and yes I did lose playing this game a few weeks ago.  It ranges from remembering tv shows, movies, books, character or actor names to songs and historical moments.  I know I should remember when the Berlin Wall fell in the 80's, but I don't remember.  I do remember Ronald Reagan and John Lennon getting shot.  I remember Madonna singing "Lucky Star" and the opening pep squad routing Judy did for spirit week that year.  I can't remember people I went to high school with that are friends on Facebook.
Why can't I remember other things?  It gets so bad sometimes I can't even think of the right words. The word is not in my mind and I have to pause a moment to come up with the right word or an alternate.  People around me must think I am dazed and confused because I know I get this look on my face.  It is frustrating and at the same time scary.  I am taking vitamins and wonder if ginko bilova would help.
My friend Jim was telling me his vivid memory of the last time he saw me.  I have no memory of it and question myself if I was really there.  Rick can spew out lines of movies from the 80's when I have a hard time remembering just the movie, never mind lines said in it.  JOMIII was always good helping my Mom remember character or actors who played in certain shows.  She would call him up (he lived upstairs) and she would call his number to ask him.  I know I am still young at 45 years old, but losing my memory is making me feel old.

I feel spoiled sometimes

I have a good life.  All in all I feel blessed in my life.  I hear stories from friends about the crazy life or hell they are going through and I have to stop and thank God it is not me.  I know He gives us trials and tribulations to get through only to make us stronger.  I guess He knows that I probably wouldn't be able to handle a serious crisis or problem. My instinct is always to flee from conflict or crisis.  I don't have the strength to stand up and fight.  I am sure if my back was pushed into a wall, I would fight.  After typing that sentence the first thought I had was, "what if I am not a big girl anymore..who could physically push me into a wall."  THERAPY...I NEED THERAPY!!
I just remember douche-bag boyfriend abuse and how I was so scared of him that I just lay there like a fool.  If I could change the past the first thing I would do is kick that bastard in the balls and smack him over the head with a baseball bat.  No really!!  I know I don't seem to be that agressive but when your mind plays the abuse over and over again...you build up this fantasy evil world of revenge. 
I thank him though for putting me here in the future where I belong.  A man came along who showed me how it is to love with a whole heart and soul and I married him. If it wasn't for douche-bag, I wouldn't of met Rick.
To all of you going through some difficult times right now, my only advice is that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and although you are in the darkess blackness you have ever been in.....God will show you the light.  Just keep looking for it...

Compliments feel funny

I am still shy when someone pays me attention.  I like it...don't get me wrong...but when they compliments start coming, I start turning red and get embarrassed.  It is a feeling that I remember as a little redhaired girl and all the old folks would stop and tell me how cute I was.  Normally I should feel flattered that I am being noticed, but inside I want to go run and eat a hot fudge sundae to calm me down.
This is not rational....
I am trying to break out of this shell and become more extroverted.  Those of you who know me are in shock to learn that I am really an introvert. Once I get to know you, I break out of my shy shell and have fun.  I have to know you first.   My sister Maureen can talk to anyone, anywhere about anything...and she does.  Elevator rides which are normally taboo for talking to one another...she cracks jokes with strangers.  I stand in the corner and try not to move. 
I will have to learn to be more assertive and polite to accept kind words of compliments.  KEEP THEM COMING!! 

A couple bad days

I had a really bad episode yesterday that lasted until today.  I woke up and had bad nausea and bad abdominal pain.  It felt like a bad gas bubble that was blocking me up.  I would have waves of nausea come over me and start to get sick. The thing about gastric bypass is we do not have bile in our stomachs to throw up. Rick was standing near me rubbing my back to help ease my pain.  I called the doctor because it seriously felt like something was stuck in my bowels.  The doctor answered right away and I gave him my symptoms.  He suggested Mylox, Mylanta and a laxative to help ease the pain/nausea. Rick ran to the store to get me some and I was closing my GB handbook when I saw this highlighted.  No raw fruits or vegetables until week 12. 
Well Saturday night I had eaten taco meat with lettuce and tomato on tortilla wrap.  I think the lettuce and tomato was the problem of the gas.  I woke up this morning and still had both nausea and gas pain.  I did have a normal bladder release and that felt good.  I just woke up at 5pm (I was up all night in pain).  Now I feel no nausea or gas pain.  I ate a grilled cheese tortilla and feel better.  Now I have to drink more liquids to prevent dehydration.
I am lucky it has passed.

SKYPE

I was logged into SKYPE and heard it make a signal when my brother Michael came on tonight.  We all SKYPED together (Mike, Sandy, Rick and I) and it felt like we were right there in their computer room. I love SKYPE and the way you can not only hear the conversation but see it too.
I found that they now offer group calls, for an extra fee.  I can't imagine getting all seven O'Malley's on SKYPE and trying to have a conference SKYPE call.  It gets hectic in person trying to outspeak each other.  I guess that is why I am the quiet one! LOL  That plus being the youngest I guess I was taught to respect my elders (dig dig).
But if anyone wants to know our SKYPE name, HMU (hit me up) and I will let you know it. Feeling more and more technologically improved.  Webcam works great on new laptop so I can take it outside and walk around the house.
Love you family!!

June 2nd Dr office visit

When the going gets tough....

My car died yesterday.  I think it looked like some kind of tire rod sticking out and caused wheel to move into back bumper and dislodge.  I called AAA and renewed my membership, because of course my procrastination let it expire.  The tow truck came within 25 minutes.  It was 99 degrees out on bank sign.  I was debating go out in the heat but I got my short term disability check in the mail on Tuesday and wanted to deposit.  Luckily I was near gas station to pull in and wait in A/C for tow truck.  I would have melted in the heat.  I told them I recently had surgery and AAA lady flagged me as high priority.  Now I know the trick for future reference.
The tow truck driver from McGraw Wrecker (nice Irish name) was Scott who was from Manchester, NH!  Cool!!  When you meet a fellow New Englander down here, there is a camaradie between us that only we understand.  Rick looked at tire and thinks he maybe able to weld it up.  Wait and see.
So the dilema today was waking up and realizing that he left for work already....in his truck.  I was suppose to talk to him about taking his motorcycle or dropping him off at Joe McCally's house for a ride.  I only have three hours of sleep and am wide awake after hitting up my friends for a ride to doctor's appointment today. I love my friends.  They are my second family down here.  I would do anything for them, and today they showed they will help me out when I need it.
I even got a FB message from friend who gave me referral for honest used car dealer.  How about them apples!  Sounds like oxymoron...honest used car salesman?

All the other days

Day 26 ⇝ What kind of person attracts you
beautiful eyes, nice smile, bear hugs, intelligent but has street smarts too, great sense of humor, sarcastic, philisophical, has to have chest hair, long wet kisses.

Day 27 ⇝ A problem that you have had
How to lose weight has always been a problem for me but not for long.  I am on my way to using gastric bypass to get healthy and lose the weight that has been a burden to my body for all my life.

Day 28 ⇝ Something that you miss
Ipswich Fried Clams.  I know there is a place in Greenville that I can get them but not sure if they will agree with my new pouch.

Day 29 ⇝ Goals for the next 30 days
Get healthy by going to Zumba more and exercising regularly.

Day 30 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this month
HIGH= my gastric bypass surgery on May 10th but this was also a low for me since I miss my Mom and family and wish they were here to support me.

Catch Up on my days

Day 21 ⇝ One of your favorite shows 
Right now it is GLee but Nikita runs a close second

Day 22 ⇝ How have you changed in the past 2 years
I am more confident and financially secure than I have ever been.

Day 23 ⇝ Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous you find attractive
Easier to just list them: Gerard Butler, David Boreanz, Matthew Broderick -my 80's crush but he still has this cuteness about him.

Day 24 ⇝ Your favorite movie and what it's about
On Golden Pond, because it stars real like father/daughter Jane Fonda and Henry Fonda and it is located in New Hampshire. Reminds me of my father.

Day 25 ⇝ Someone who fascinates you and why
My husband fascinates me with his wisdom and random facts he knows.

Day 26 ⇝ What kind of person attracts you
Day 27 ⇝ A problem that you have had
Day 28 ⇝ Something that you miss
Day 29 ⇝ Goals for the next 30 days
Day 30 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this month

Day 20 ⇝ How important you think education is

It might be more like day 46 but I am at least going in order! 
This is day 20 which asks how important I think education is.  First of all I think education should not be forced upon anyone.  My dad went up to 9th grade education and he was a very smart man.  He had to go work to support the family, being the oldest child.  My mother on the other hand had private education taught by nuns and then went on to nursing school.  Both of my parents provided for their family regardless of their education level.  I think if you can get a job today, with or without a diploma...you are in good shape. Granted sometimes a degree from college may make you the more suitable candidate for the job, but ultimately education should be up to you.  I think every freshmen in college should be paying their own way, so if they want to take the party route and blow all their classes, then it is their own money blown and not their parents.  They need to take ownership of the bill.  On the other hand I think poor, low-income bright and intelligent students who just don't have the means to afford the education, should be allowed a lot more scholarships and cheaper tuition.

Day 21 ⇝ One of your favorite shows
Day 22 ⇝ How have you changed in the past 2 years
Day 23 ⇝ Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous you find attractive
Day 24 ⇝ Your favorite movie and what it's about
Day 25 ⇝ Someone who fascinates you and why
Day 26 ⇝ What kind of person attracts you
Day 27 ⇝ A problem that you have had
Day 28 ⇝ Something that you miss
Day 29 ⇝ Goals for the next 30 days
Day 30 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this month

Week 2 Post Op VLOG

Day 19 ⇝ Disrespecting your parents

I really am not sure if this is day 19 or not but since I am sitting (comfortably) at computer, I thought I would post new Day 19 Challenge.

Disrespecting Parents-  I think kids today have no idea what the word respect is about.  Yes I did dis-obey my parents, but I never tried to disrespect them.  If we were to say half the things kids say to their parents today, we would have a back hand somewhere on our bodies to remind us that is not respectful.  I know my Dad never would let us say one bad thing about Mom because that was disrespectful of her.  She ruled the roost and deserved all the respect we could give her.  I know in the film "Christmas Story" when Ralphie has to wash his mouth out with soap, this punishment was actually used in the O'Malley household.  I don't remember what kind of soap it was...but one of my older siblings had to bite down on Ivory.
There are two things that you should always give your parents...love & respect.

saved the next few days

Day 11 ⇝ Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up
Don’t have one

Day 12 ⇝ Bullet your whole day- skipped this

Day 13 ⇝ Somewhere you'd like to move or visit
Ireland

Day 14 ⇝ Your earliest memory
I remember Mrs. Aliscio’s kindergarten class and holding the big metal door open

Day 15 ⇝ Your favorite Tumblrs
I just had to google what Tumblrs were so I guess I don’t have any favorites

Day 16 ⇝ Your views on mainstream music
Love all kinds of music so my views are that as long as I can understand the words and sing along… I might like the song.

Day 17 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this past year
Mom passing away was a low and getting my M/C license was high


Day 18 ⇝ Your beliefs
I believe in God the almighty…Creator of heaven and earth (Apostle’s Creed)
I believe that He is a loving God and that being a good person will get you to eternal salvation in heaven. I strongly believe in angels and spirits that guide me through this life. I believe that karma does exist and will come back ten fold if you do harm/ill-will to someone. I believe in the Golden Rule…”treat others as you wish to be treated”. I believe that the more we love, the more we live.
I believe that Redheads Rule!

Day 10 ⇝ Discuss your first love and first kiss

Oh man this might take me a while....
First kiss was my Dad!  or maybe Mom since Dads were out in the maternity ward waiting room back in the old days. 
My first french kiss with when I was 13 years old and I was at the YMCA pool.  Peter Cabral took me in the equipment closet and I bite his tongue. I guess it was a form of initiation but I am glad I got to learn what french kissing was.

My first love...was my first husband Todd.  He was my everything to me and I fell head over heals in love with him.  Of course, you should never marry your first love.  Big mistake!!!



Day 11 ⇝ Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up
Day 12 ⇝ Bullet your whole day
Day 13 ⇝ Somewhere you'd like to move or visit
Day 14 ⇝ Your earliest memory
Day 15 ⇝ Your favorite Tumblrs
Day 16 ⇝ Your views on mainstream music
Day 17 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this past year
Day 18 ⇝ Your beliefs
Day 19 ⇝ Disrespecting your parents
Day 20 ⇝ How important you think education is
Day 21 ⇝ One of your favorite shows
Day 22 ⇝ How have you changed in the past 2 years
Day 23 ⇝ Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous you find attractive
Day 24 ⇝ Your favorite movie and what it's about
Day 25 ⇝ Someone who fascinates you and why
Day 26 ⇝ What kind of person attracts you
Day 27 ⇝ A problem that you have had
Day 28 ⇝ Something that you miss
Day 29 ⇝ Goals for the next 30 days
Day 30 ⇝ Your highs and lows of this month