I feel spoiled sometimes

I have a good life.  All in all I feel blessed in my life.  I hear stories from friends about the crazy life or hell they are going through and I have to stop and thank God it is not me.  I know He gives us trials and tribulations to get through only to make us stronger.  I guess He knows that I probably wouldn't be able to handle a serious crisis or problem. My instinct is always to flee from conflict or crisis.  I don't have the strength to stand up and fight.  I am sure if my back was pushed into a wall, I would fight.  After typing that sentence the first thought I had was, "what if I am not a big girl anymore..who could physically push me into a wall."  THERAPY...I NEED THERAPY!!
I just remember douche-bag boyfriend abuse and how I was so scared of him that I just lay there like a fool.  If I could change the past the first thing I would do is kick that bastard in the balls and smack him over the head with a baseball bat.  No really!!  I know I don't seem to be that agressive but when your mind plays the abuse over and over again...you build up this fantasy evil world of revenge. 
I thank him though for putting me here in the future where I belong.  A man came along who showed me how it is to love with a whole heart and soul and I married him. If it wasn't for douche-bag, I wouldn't of met Rick.
To all of you going through some difficult times right now, my only advice is that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and although you are in the darkess blackness you have ever been in.....God will show you the light.  Just keep looking for it...

Compliments feel funny

I am still shy when someone pays me attention.  I like it...don't get me wrong...but when they compliments start coming, I start turning red and get embarrassed.  It is a feeling that I remember as a little redhaired girl and all the old folks would stop and tell me how cute I was.  Normally I should feel flattered that I am being noticed, but inside I want to go run and eat a hot fudge sundae to calm me down.
This is not rational....
I am trying to break out of this shell and become more extroverted.  Those of you who know me are in shock to learn that I am really an introvert. Once I get to know you, I break out of my shy shell and have fun.  I have to know you first.   My sister Maureen can talk to anyone, anywhere about anything...and she does.  Elevator rides which are normally taboo for talking to one another...she cracks jokes with strangers.  I stand in the corner and try not to move. 
I will have to learn to be more assertive and polite to accept kind words of compliments.  KEEP THEM COMING!! 

A couple bad days

I had a really bad episode yesterday that lasted until today.  I woke up and had bad nausea and bad abdominal pain.  It felt like a bad gas bubble that was blocking me up.  I would have waves of nausea come over me and start to get sick. The thing about gastric bypass is we do not have bile in our stomachs to throw up. Rick was standing near me rubbing my back to help ease my pain.  I called the doctor because it seriously felt like something was stuck in my bowels.  The doctor answered right away and I gave him my symptoms.  He suggested Mylox, Mylanta and a laxative to help ease the pain/nausea. Rick ran to the store to get me some and I was closing my GB handbook when I saw this highlighted.  No raw fruits or vegetables until week 12. 
Well Saturday night I had eaten taco meat with lettuce and tomato on tortilla wrap.  I think the lettuce and tomato was the problem of the gas.  I woke up this morning and still had both nausea and gas pain.  I did have a normal bladder release and that felt good.  I just woke up at 5pm (I was up all night in pain).  Now I feel no nausea or gas pain.  I ate a grilled cheese tortilla and feel better.  Now I have to drink more liquids to prevent dehydration.
I am lucky it has passed.

SKYPE

I was logged into SKYPE and heard it make a signal when my brother Michael came on tonight.  We all SKYPED together (Mike, Sandy, Rick and I) and it felt like we were right there in their computer room. I love SKYPE and the way you can not only hear the conversation but see it too.
I found that they now offer group calls, for an extra fee.  I can't imagine getting all seven O'Malley's on SKYPE and trying to have a conference SKYPE call.  It gets hectic in person trying to outspeak each other.  I guess that is why I am the quiet one! LOL  That plus being the youngest I guess I was taught to respect my elders (dig dig).
But if anyone wants to know our SKYPE name, HMU (hit me up) and I will let you know it. Feeling more and more technologically improved.  Webcam works great on new laptop so I can take it outside and walk around the house.
Love you family!!

June 2nd Dr office visit

When the going gets tough....

My car died yesterday.  I think it looked like some kind of tire rod sticking out and caused wheel to move into back bumper and dislodge.  I called AAA and renewed my membership, because of course my procrastination let it expire.  The tow truck came within 25 minutes.  It was 99 degrees out on bank sign.  I was debating go out in the heat but I got my short term disability check in the mail on Tuesday and wanted to deposit.  Luckily I was near gas station to pull in and wait in A/C for tow truck.  I would have melted in the heat.  I told them I recently had surgery and AAA lady flagged me as high priority.  Now I know the trick for future reference.
The tow truck driver from McGraw Wrecker (nice Irish name) was Scott who was from Manchester, NH!  Cool!!  When you meet a fellow New Englander down here, there is a camaradie between us that only we understand.  Rick looked at tire and thinks he maybe able to weld it up.  Wait and see.
So the dilema today was waking up and realizing that he left for work already....in his truck.  I was suppose to talk to him about taking his motorcycle or dropping him off at Joe McCally's house for a ride.  I only have three hours of sleep and am wide awake after hitting up my friends for a ride to doctor's appointment today. I love my friends.  They are my second family down here.  I would do anything for them, and today they showed they will help me out when I need it.
I even got a FB message from friend who gave me referral for honest used car dealer.  How about them apples!  Sounds like oxymoron...honest used car salesman?