That is the hardest thing for me to say right now. I am still holding on to the grief and I need to let it go. It is suppose to subside in time, but it still hurts so much. I know I am suppose to “get over it” but no two people grieve the same.
My nephew, Tyler J. Trahan, was killed in Iraq last year on April 30th. His birthday was two days later. My sister had to sign his death certificate on what would have been his 23rd birthday. She said she never imagined 23 years earlier that she would be doing that. I cannot fathom her pain. My niece lost her only sibling and brother. My brother-in-law lost his only son.
I wasn’t the Aunt I should have been, but that is in the past. I cannot change the past. I can only live in the moment and right now I have been grieving (again). I am heading to Elgin AFB in Florida for his first anniversary in two weeks. It just so happens to be the National EOD Memorial weekend. He was a member of Explosive Ordinance Disposal family and they have embraced us into their family. I need both my blood relatives and EOD family to help me memorialize a terrific kid. He would come right over after he opened his birthday/Christmas gifts from me to give me a kiss. He was very sweet, loving and caring. My husband and I scuba dive and talked him into going for his scuba certificate.. He ended up going into the Navy and would tell us about all his scuba diving adventures/training. (Well not all of them but what he could share…he did)
It wasn’t suppose to happen this way. Tyler was suppose to defend our country and return home. He did make it home, but that casket was not the vessel he was suppose to come home in. He was a hero to me before he was even killed. The last conversation I had with him was hearing how excited he was and sharing how he had just met the President (Bush). I told him to stay safe and God bless. That is what I have to remember…he is safe now with God. A flash of white light that sent him straight to heaven and he is now a bright shining white star looking down on us. “And until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of His hand.”
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
Kindergarten way back in 1971
Maybe you didn't quite see those huge freckles on my face. That is not the picture, although I would have prefered Fotomat glossy instead of matte finish. This is my kindergarten picture from 1971. Although I was at Sacred Hearts Catholic School, I think they let the kindergarten kids take their pictures without uniforms on. I did wear a uniform everyday for Mrs. Aliscio's (sp) class. It was held in the basement of the school. We had this huge concrete door that the whole class had to get up and practice shutting for "raids". I can't really remember what for but I am sure it was for some kind of drill. I remember my mother was the school secretary back then since she could type very good. Mom went back to St. Lukes after I started school full time. She took a nursing sabatical for 7 years. I think she would have missed out on quite of bite of us growing up had she not stayed home. My favorite memory of kindergarten was when Mom brought us Burger Chef. (I don't think McDonald's was around our city back then). Burger Chef use to give Mom her own ordering pad so she could pre-write all nine of our orders down instead of waiting for each one of us to call out what we wanted. And you never really knew the whole menu...Mom only probably let us choose between two things. I like the kids today who come up to the ice cream window and the parents ask what they want.....ummmm....I dunno.....um...... Okay it is either chocolate, vanilla or coffee. Oh would I love a coffee frappe right now. Poulas Pharmacy on Union Street made the best. But I loved the Starr Store too!
Just walking down memory lane for today.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Mom and poetry
Mom is wonderful singer. She is no Barbra but she does carry a tune very good. I have fond memories of us singing in the car on Sunday drives, when the Red Sox games weren't on the radio. I have this one spring song she taught me...
Though April showers,
Have come your way,
They bring the flowers,
That bloom in May.
So if it's raining have no regrets..
because it isn't raining rain you know,
It's raining violets (here is where she would harmonize with me)
When you see clouds upon the hill,
You soon will see crowds of dafodils
So keep on looking for the bluebird, and listening for his song
whenever April Showers come along.
( I found a link to the song with just piano chords, but that is exactly how I picture Mom right now playing at the piano and singing this song http://www.v-r-a.org/ppp/AprilShs/AprilShs.htm )
The other poem she use to recite with a thick disguised Brooklyn accent ...
Here are a few pictures of my tulips...HAPPY SPRING!
Though April showers,
Have come your way,
They bring the flowers,
That bloom in May.
So if it's raining have no regrets..
because it isn't raining rain you know,
It's raining violets (here is where she would harmonize with me)
When you see clouds upon the hill,
You soon will see crowds of dafodils
So keep on looking for the bluebird, and listening for his song
whenever April Showers come along.
( I found a link to the song with just piano chords, but that is exactly how I picture Mom right now playing at the piano and singing this song http://www.v-r-a.org/ppp/AprilShs/AprilShs.htm )
The other poem she use to recite with a thick disguised Brooklyn accent ...
Spring has sprung
de grass has rizz
I wonder where de flowers iz
boids on wing ain't that absoid
I tawt de wings were on de boid
I just called her because I got stuck on the last part and in normal Claudette fashion...she starts telling me how to spell things. God love her. Here are a few pictures of my tulips...HAPPY SPRING!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Twenty things you might not know about me....
1.) I am a minority yet not one application I fill out can I claim I am a minority. Only 2% of the world's population are Redheads. Yes there should be some kind of reward for having this copper head but as long as it stays on my head...I am happy.
2) I did dye my hair once...and only once. It was during Fall and my friend talked me going into dying it a more deeper auburn color. It came out looking like a deep brown. My pale pukey white skin and deep dark hair and it being Fall, I looked like Elvira. I defiantly looked Goth (before Goth was even considered a clique). My mother yelled at me for doing it and screamed "God gave you that hair color for a reason". I never colored it again.
3) My two front teeth are fake. I was in 5th grade and went to NBHS for summer swim team. The girls had used shampoo to soap up the floors and slide between the dressing rooms. I was using the squeegee to clean up the mess when I slipped and fell (on my teeth). I could feel it and then looked up and saw the broken teeth on the floor in front of me. (Same day my Dad got rushed to Boston for open heart surgery)
4)I got to see (secret) underground at Disney World. During High School we were invited to march down Main Street USA. We were given "ALL DAY PASSES" so we could go on any ride we wanted. (back when they had E tickets)
5.)My mother walked me down the aisle for my first wedding. Just as the music began, her lace dressed got caught in one of my pearl appliqués. The photographer took out his Swiss army knife and cut us free. She turned to me and says, “that was the tie that binded us together that is now broken”. WAAHHHHHH (and then the tears began)
6.)My first French kiss was in the pool closet at the YMCA. I guess turning 13 and claiming to never been kissed made everyone push me into the closet with Peter Cabral. He turned out the light and I had no idea what was going on. I was screaming to get out but he just grabbed me and started to French kiss me. I had no idea what French kissing was so I bite his tongue and he then turned on the light. I am traumatized to this day….
7.)I was also in love with Butch Hobson, ex-Red Sox 3rd basemen. I use to watch every single Red Sox game and wish he was my husband.
8.)My worst sunburn was on the back of my knees. I couldn’t walk or sit down. Every bend of my leg hurt.
9.)I got sun poisoning on my honeymoon in Aruba. Yes was smart enough to put SPF100 on, but I applied it from my arm up and forgot to do my hands. The tops of my hands swelled so bad, I had to go to Aruba Hospital for cortisone shot. You have to get buzzed by security into hospital. I thought you could just walk right in but I was standing outside pleading my case to security before they let us in.
10.)I love clams, oysters, cherrystones or any other bivalve. I would give anything for a plate of Ipswich Fried Clams. I would even work out extra to burn them off.
11.)Although I am a walking tourist ad for Ireland with all these freckles on my face, I am half French. I don’t admit to it though!
12.)Speaking of being half French-Canadian, I also am a post-debutante. It is old custom for single woman to be presented before society as a “coming out” ball. My how that phrase has changed (coming out)! So here I was, dressed in my pretty white gown, doing a long, slow bow before the French dignitaries and the announcer is trying to pronounce my Irish surname with French accent.
13.)My husband’s number on his hockey jersey is 13. We both love Ice hockey but since we have moved to South Carolina, it is not a popular sport down here.
14.)My first car was a 1972 Toyota Corolla that I bought for $400 dollars from my babysitting money. I use to drive my best friend to school everyday. The car would still be running today if I had put oil in it.
15.)We owned a barroom (one word or two?) growing up and I use to pack the glass bottles into the cooler for my Dad. I also use to clean out the ashtrays which were scallop shells. To this day, I claim that is the reason I don’t drink or smoke.
16.)My Catholic confirmation name is Theresa. I took that name for St. Theresa, the little flower. When she answers your pray, you are suppose to smell or see roses. I went to the chapel and prayed to her for a job I wanted. I walked out of chapel and was getting ready to cross the street so I stepped between two parked cars. On the ground in front of my foot was a rose. I then got offered the job with Reebok. My mother cried when I told her this story.
17.)Mom made us kneel down every night after dinner and say the rosary. It was a special treat if you were the one who got to light the candle next to Virgin Mary statue.
18.)I had braces when I was growing up. No big deal but the youngest three in the family all had braces. I still wonder how my Mom could afford that.
19.)I had a miscarriage back in 1998. It was with an ex-boyfriend who was verbally abusive to me. Although my husband and I are childless, I still think that was God showing me the way my life was suppose to go.
20.) My goal is to walk a 5k next month (BFA FCA 5K at Willow Creek) so I need all the motivation I can get.
2) I did dye my hair once...and only once. It was during Fall and my friend talked me going into dying it a more deeper auburn color. It came out looking like a deep brown. My pale pukey white skin and deep dark hair and it being Fall, I looked like Elvira. I defiantly looked Goth (before Goth was even considered a clique). My mother yelled at me for doing it and screamed "God gave you that hair color for a reason". I never colored it again.
3) My two front teeth are fake. I was in 5th grade and went to NBHS for summer swim team. The girls had used shampoo to soap up the floors and slide between the dressing rooms. I was using the squeegee to clean up the mess when I slipped and fell (on my teeth). I could feel it and then looked up and saw the broken teeth on the floor in front of me. (Same day my Dad got rushed to Boston for open heart surgery)
4)I got to see (secret) underground at Disney World. During High School we were invited to march down Main Street USA. We were given "ALL DAY PASSES" so we could go on any ride we wanted. (back when they had E tickets)
5.)My mother walked me down the aisle for my first wedding. Just as the music began, her lace dressed got caught in one of my pearl appliqués. The photographer took out his Swiss army knife and cut us free. She turned to me and says, “that was the tie that binded us together that is now broken”. WAAHHHHHH (and then the tears began)
6.)My first French kiss was in the pool closet at the YMCA. I guess turning 13 and claiming to never been kissed made everyone push me into the closet with Peter Cabral. He turned out the light and I had no idea what was going on. I was screaming to get out but he just grabbed me and started to French kiss me. I had no idea what French kissing was so I bite his tongue and he then turned on the light. I am traumatized to this day….
7.)I was also in love with Butch Hobson, ex-Red Sox 3rd basemen. I use to watch every single Red Sox game and wish he was my husband.
8.)My worst sunburn was on the back of my knees. I couldn’t walk or sit down. Every bend of my leg hurt.
9.)I got sun poisoning on my honeymoon in Aruba. Yes was smart enough to put SPF100 on, but I applied it from my arm up and forgot to do my hands. The tops of my hands swelled so bad, I had to go to Aruba Hospital for cortisone shot. You have to get buzzed by security into hospital. I thought you could just walk right in but I was standing outside pleading my case to security before they let us in.
10.)I love clams, oysters, cherrystones or any other bivalve. I would give anything for a plate of Ipswich Fried Clams. I would even work out extra to burn them off.
11.)Although I am a walking tourist ad for Ireland with all these freckles on my face, I am half French. I don’t admit to it though!
12.)Speaking of being half French-Canadian, I also am a post-debutante. It is old custom for single woman to be presented before society as a “coming out” ball. My how that phrase has changed (coming out)! So here I was, dressed in my pretty white gown, doing a long, slow bow before the French dignitaries and the announcer is trying to pronounce my Irish surname with French accent.
13.)My husband’s number on his hockey jersey is 13. We both love Ice hockey but since we have moved to South Carolina, it is not a popular sport down here.
14.)My first car was a 1972 Toyota Corolla that I bought for $400 dollars from my babysitting money. I use to drive my best friend to school everyday. The car would still be running today if I had put oil in it.
15.)We owned a barroom (one word or two?) growing up and I use to pack the glass bottles into the cooler for my Dad. I also use to clean out the ashtrays which were scallop shells. To this day, I claim that is the reason I don’t drink or smoke.
16.)My Catholic confirmation name is Theresa. I took that name for St. Theresa, the little flower. When she answers your pray, you are suppose to smell or see roses. I went to the chapel and prayed to her for a job I wanted. I walked out of chapel and was getting ready to cross the street so I stepped between two parked cars. On the ground in front of my foot was a rose. I then got offered the job with Reebok. My mother cried when I told her this story.
17.)Mom made us kneel down every night after dinner and say the rosary. It was a special treat if you were the one who got to light the candle next to Virgin Mary statue.
18.)I had braces when I was growing up. No big deal but the youngest three in the family all had braces. I still wonder how my Mom could afford that.
19.)I had a miscarriage back in 1998. It was with an ex-boyfriend who was verbally abusive to me. Although my husband and I are childless, I still think that was God showing me the way my life was suppose to go.
20.) My goal is to walk a 5k next month (BFA FCA 5K at Willow Creek) so I need all the motivation I can get.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Motorcycle License
I've been thinking of getting my motocycle license. It was high 78 degrees on this gorgeous March day. Rick took his bike out riding and I have been getting jealous. I use to love to ride my moped when I was 16-17yrs old. I know it is not the same thing but just feeling the wind blowing through my hair like Fabio commerical would be wonderful. I am not talking about a big HOG (sorry MPOM) but I really like that reverse trike I saw on commercial. (CAN AM BRP but it is $20,000)
I also like the guys that are in Rick's motorcycle club. Since they are all police, fire, ems and ex-military...they always are safe and looking out for one another. I checked online about EOD motorcyle club but that is only for EOD members.
Speaking of which, for Tyler's 1 year anniversary, they are having a EOD ball down in Florida. I guess they are invited for memorial but seeing how Florida is now closer than Massachusetts...I might ask about going. Espeically since it is also in Ft. Walton Beach where my best friend Bridget lives.
I am aching to go camping too. This beautiful weather plus looking at the camper in the backyard has got me wishing I was sitting next to a nice stream, brook or CRICK, listening to the water and watching my husband fly-fish for brownies.
Oh would that be nice. *even better would be a nice trout on the grill with a little lemon, dill and onion....yum.
I also like the guys that are in Rick's motorcycle club. Since they are all police, fire, ems and ex-military...they always are safe and looking out for one another. I checked online about EOD motorcyle club but that is only for EOD members.
Speaking of which, for Tyler's 1 year anniversary, they are having a EOD ball down in Florida. I guess they are invited for memorial but seeing how Florida is now closer than Massachusetts...I might ask about going. Espeically since it is also in Ft. Walton Beach where my best friend Bridget lives.
I am aching to go camping too. This beautiful weather plus looking at the camper in the backyard has got me wishing I was sitting next to a nice stream, brook or CRICK, listening to the water and watching my husband fly-fish for brownies.
Oh would that be nice. *even better would be a nice trout on the grill with a little lemon, dill and onion....yum.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Week 9
I began my new healthy lifestyle change on Jan 11th and it is now week 9. You would think I would feel better but there are only a few things that I notice that has changed.
My goal weight in June was suppose to be down by 44 lbs but it is going slow. I know I have to kick it in high gear at gym. My wallet is slim which makes my fridge slim which hopefully will make my waist slim.
THANK YOU CLAUDIA for your gift! She just bought me "Training for Life" by Debbie Rocker. I want to Rock this book and get healthy but I want it now.
- I am eating healthy but still give in every now and then to Girl Scout cookies.
- I am exercising which I haven't done in about 10 years.
- I am sleeping a little better but not consistantly.
- My clothes still feel the same but then again, I am bloated today.
- I noticed that I am getting my heart rate up to "optimal" workout range.
- My skin is feeling nice I think due to water.
- I haven't had a coca-cola in over two months! (but I did drink a Pepsi yesterday to be polite to my host)
- I passed up two opportunties to eat birthday cake and don't regret it.
My goal weight in June was suppose to be down by 44 lbs but it is going slow. I know I have to kick it in high gear at gym. My wallet is slim which makes my fridge slim which hopefully will make my waist slim.
THANK YOU CLAUDIA for your gift! She just bought me "Training for Life" by Debbie Rocker. I want to Rock this book and get healthy but I want it now.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
March Madness
Not basketball March Madness but the time of the year when you are sick of winter and Spring is just around the corner. For South Carolina, the last frost date is March 14. I am getting ready to prepare my first garden in our new home. Although shamrock/Clover is considered a weed to some, I would love my yard covered in it. Great deer plot too!
But my March madness also has to do with March was the month my Dad died when I was eleven. I remember the priest at his funeral talking about how there is so much grey and lifeless things around us in March, but how God always renews the earth with Spring and we just have to believe and trust that Spring will make the earth come alive again. I do believe that my Dad is my special angel watching over me. I sometimes wish I got to know him more as an adult, but I know I will always be his little girl.
March madness has begun and can't wait for April and new life to begin again.
Count each day, each memory, each moment
And make them always count.
(on letter Maureen sent to me, I am not that profound)
But my March madness also has to do with March was the month my Dad died when I was eleven. I remember the priest at his funeral talking about how there is so much grey and lifeless things around us in March, but how God always renews the earth with Spring and we just have to believe and trust that Spring will make the earth come alive again. I do believe that my Dad is my special angel watching over me. I sometimes wish I got to know him more as an adult, but I know I will always be his little girl.
March madness has begun and can't wait for April and new life to begin again.
Count each day, each memory, each moment
And make them always count.
(on letter Maureen sent to me, I am not that profound)
Saturday, February 27, 2010
God talking to me
I was at this site...(http://www.bariatricsolutions.com/helpful_links.cfm)thinking about gastric bypass when I found this link for SparkPeople. I know it was God showing me the way. Too often I miss hearing Him guide me along the way or I talk myself out of listening.
I was really thinking of having my inside cut open to have a piece of my body operated on to make me thinner? Is that why God made me? I pray for strength and not the kind that Lou Ferrigno has (I love him) but the kind that fills my spirit and makes me soar.
*cue music* "I believe I can fly"
I am accountable for me. I can't blame my past for the wayI look in the present and I can't pretend the future will be perfect, but I can do what I can today and start another day of my journey.
SparkPeople name is GIGGLEGURL7 for those of you who know me, I think it suits me since I try to always have a smile on my face. Or as the Irish saying goes, "Keep smiling so everyone will wonder what you are up to".
I was really thinking of having my inside cut open to have a piece of my body operated on to make me thinner? Is that why God made me? I pray for strength and not the kind that Lou Ferrigno has (I love him) but the kind that fills my spirit and makes me soar.
*cue music* "I believe I can fly"
I am accountable for me. I can't blame my past for the wayI look in the present and I can't pretend the future will be perfect, but I can do what I can today and start another day of my journey.
SparkPeople name is GIGGLEGURL7 for those of you who know me, I think it suits me since I try to always have a smile on my face. Or as the Irish saying goes, "Keep smiling so everyone will wonder what you are up to".
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Ordinary Miracle
I have been watching some of the Olympics and I didn't get to see this song performed but I just watched it on YouTube and think it is beautiful. There are those days when it takes so much energy just to get myself up out of bed and motivated but once I do, I thank God for the day he has given me.
On the way to work this morning, as the sun was beginning to rise, it gave off such a pretty rose color in the clouds that it was magical. Just a ordinary miracle. I have so much to be thankful for that it's these little moments that make me stop and realize that God is good.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Cherish
I got a letter from my sister yesterday and it was (and always is) filled with such positive thoughts and feelings that I have to say she is my insipiration. If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it.
She finds everyday things that bring her inspiration and find Tyler is talking to her through this things. I agree as I find myself hearing Tyler talking to me every now. It usually over something that makes me stop and then laugh. His spirit has also been my motivator to get up in the early hours and go work out. If that kid could sacrafice his life for me, and go through all that training himself...than I can pull my fat butt out of bed and go walk. I will someday be able to do a push up and when I do, it will be with him doing them with me.
Her letter ended with the saying to Cherish every moment. I have to keep reminding myself that life it so precious and to stop and cherish people, places and things around me.
She finds everyday things that bring her inspiration and find Tyler is talking to her through this things. I agree as I find myself hearing Tyler talking to me every now. It usually over something that makes me stop and then laugh. His spirit has also been my motivator to get up in the early hours and go work out. If that kid could sacrafice his life for me, and go through all that training himself...than I can pull my fat butt out of bed and go walk. I will someday be able to do a push up and when I do, it will be with him doing them with me.
Her letter ended with the saying to Cherish every moment. I have to keep reminding myself that life it so precious and to stop and cherish people, places and things around me.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Customer Survey's
It paid off! We went to eat at Longhorn Steakhouse, using a gift card Mom gave us for Christmas. On the bottom of your reciept is a way to log on and take a customer survey. I always do these because you never know...
Well I got a check in the mail yesterday for $50 for taking the survey! Woo Hoo!! I was thinking it was going to be a gift card, which was fine by me, but a check is even better!
So morale of the story....."You might just win if you take those survey's"
Well I got a check in the mail yesterday for $50 for taking the survey! Woo Hoo!! I was thinking it was going to be a gift card, which was fine by me, but a check is even better!
So morale of the story....."You might just win if you take those survey's"
RRR
Reedy River Run is coming up next month. I signed up to be a volunteer since this is the new me! "NO DAY BUT TODAY!" (FALLINOFF in SP)
I am kinda looking forward to it for two reasons. 1) similiar to New Bedford Road Race which I know Friendly Sons of St. Patrick/brothers now help with and 2) Springtime is great time to get active and get to know other healthy-minded people.
That doesn't mind that I am not friends anymore with folks who eat fried chicken....Oh Nah Nah I say..
It just means that I need more healthy people in my life to keep me motivated (for now). I work in "sporting goods industry" so you would think I would want to get healthy just for my job.
(don't forget to log in and out 5 times a day BTW)
I am kinda looking forward to it for two reasons. 1) similiar to New Bedford Road Race which I know Friendly Sons of St. Patrick/brothers now help with and 2) Springtime is great time to get active and get to know other healthy-minded people.
That doesn't mind that I am not friends anymore with folks who eat fried chicken....Oh Nah Nah I say..
It just means that I need more healthy people in my life to keep me motivated (for now). I work in "sporting goods industry" so you would think I would want to get healthy just for my job.
(don't forget to log in and out 5 times a day BTW)
Monday, February 8, 2010
Tracking
I have begun tracking things. I track my food/nutrition and my fitness that I do. I am also tracking my blood pressure. My concern is that this Harbor Freight 25dollar wrist cuff doesn't work right. I wish Mom could take my BP with her fat arm cuff. I have my yearly Dr. appt in May so I will show him my BP tracking page and see if it matchs to what his BP shows. I am trying to get off my BP medicine, even though it is only 4bucks a month....it still can be prevented.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
My inner coach
I have voices in my head. Often times my voice does the John Pinette routine, "Get out line".
But this morning I clearly heard my inner coach. I was lying bed awake thinking of stupid things when it was 5:58am. My alarm was set to go off at 6am so I could get up, wash face/brush teeth, get dressed, make a lunch and leave to go exercise before work. I clicked on the alarm time and pushed it out to 7:00 thinking I would go back to sleep for an hour. My inner coach voice said to me, "Why do you think you will fall back asleep after you have been awake thinking of stupid stuff for about the last 15 mins...get up an go work out". Not sure if those were the exact words but my inner coach's voice (which is male by the way--see I told you I was wacky) demanded me to get up and get moving. I obeyed his command.
I ended up reaching my 40 minute goal for this week and walked on the treadmill 1.65 miles burning 285 calories. It is sad to think that I already ate that many calories today. I know it is suppose to be calories in-calories out but I am not up to running yet. Rick actually said I should wait to drop more weight before I try to run so it doesn't damage my joints. Smart guy! I would really love to swim but am still afraid of the kids at the YMCA yelling out "Look a beached whale!" I will swim at the Y again someday (goal).
But this morning I clearly heard my inner coach. I was lying bed awake thinking of stupid things when it was 5:58am. My alarm was set to go off at 6am so I could get up, wash face/brush teeth, get dressed, make a lunch and leave to go exercise before work. I clicked on the alarm time and pushed it out to 7:00 thinking I would go back to sleep for an hour. My inner coach voice said to me, "Why do you think you will fall back asleep after you have been awake thinking of stupid stuff for about the last 15 mins...get up an go work out". Not sure if those were the exact words but my inner coach's voice (which is male by the way--see I told you I was wacky) demanded me to get up and get moving. I obeyed his command.
I ended up reaching my 40 minute goal for this week and walked on the treadmill 1.65 miles burning 285 calories. It is sad to think that I already ate that many calories today. I know it is suppose to be calories in-calories out but I am not up to running yet. Rick actually said I should wait to drop more weight before I try to run so it doesn't damage my joints. Smart guy! I would really love to swim but am still afraid of the kids at the YMCA yelling out "Look a beached whale!" I will swim at the Y again someday (goal).
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Joined Spark Community
my.sparkpeople.com/GIGGLEGURL7
I just joined The Spark Community with trying to help my daily calorie log and looks good so far....
I just joined The Spark Community with trying to help my daily calorie log and looks good so far....
Help Count backyard birds
http://www.birdcount.org/
I found this website through The Women's Outdoor Wire, that they are looking for volunteers to count backyard birds.
I found this website through The Women's Outdoor Wire, that they are looking for volunteers to count backyard birds.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I love my garage
So we did get a little bit of snow/ice mix. This picture is taken out of computer room window. (smudge on window that needs cleaning) The good news is that we were able to put both the truck and the car in our garage. For those of you who have seen our garage at apt complex, know that it was chock full of Rick's stuff and there was no way to even fit our second kayak let alone a car. Now in our new house with double garage, we got to put them both inside the garage and out of these elements. It also helps that Lori, previous homeowner, left the keorsene heater in the garage so it is a heated garage. Nice to keep your car warm, but down here it is only needed a couple really cold days. I told Rick that it will useful come the springtime when possible hail storms happen and now we have a place to safely put the vehicles. It was also good to have the boat close by so we could clear the snow/ice off the cover. It was weighing it down and could possible tear at the windshield. The birds are going nuts on my birdfeeder. It was full this morning but now it is quite a bit down. I love watching them and their chubby bodies pecking at the seed. Brier is on the couch all snuggled up next to Daddy. I just had a nice big bowl of beef stew with a couple drops of hot sauce. Delicous.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Goal
It is a little goal and probably you are saying to yourself, "that is nothing" but to me, I reached a little goal this morning and I am so happy.
I made myself a realistic goal by week 3 I would be walking 30 minutes. Week 1 was 10-15 mins. Week 2 was 15-20 mins, and this week was 25-30 mins. I did it! I had the treadmill set for 25 mins this morning but as I got to 20, I still felt good so I advanced it to 27 mins. My heart rate was good and I felt so good. I kept mentally telling myself to go for 30 mins and then I found myself increasing the minutes up to 30. It seemed easier this morning maybe because no one was in there with me, (except Hank for five minutes) and I could relax and meditate on my goal.
Next week I wrote down 40-45 minutes. I CAN DO IT!
I made myself a realistic goal by week 3 I would be walking 30 minutes. Week 1 was 10-15 mins. Week 2 was 15-20 mins, and this week was 25-30 mins. I did it! I had the treadmill set for 25 mins this morning but as I got to 20, I still felt good so I advanced it to 27 mins. My heart rate was good and I felt so good. I kept mentally telling myself to go for 30 mins and then I found myself increasing the minutes up to 30. It seemed easier this morning maybe because no one was in there with me, (except Hank for five minutes) and I could relax and meditate on my goal.
Next week I wrote down 40-45 minutes. I CAN DO IT!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Happy 50th Birthday MPOM
I hope the Wicked Whoopie Pie will be worth it! I use to watch Phantom Gourmet back when I lived in MA and saw the Whoopie Pie on the show. I remember anytime we needed to have something for Girl Scout or school bake sale, Mom would always make Whoopie Pies. And now I am craving one!
Leave a comment if you love Whoopie Pies too.
Leave a comment if you love Whoopie Pies too.
Our Friend Art and Rick looking dapper in their suits.
Posting this because Art was visiting here for two weeks and he left today. He came down to SC to escape the harsh New England weather, but needless to say we also had cold temperatures here last week. Today was up in the 60's but of course it is the day he is going home. He did help out with cropping my blinds and by helping Rick replace bulbs for out back door light. I am thankful that he visits.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Birds
I got a bird feeder for Christmas. It was the type of present where we are walking through Lowe's and I said to Rick, I would like a bird feeder for Christmas. I picked out the one I wanted, he paid for it and it is now hanging up on our iron pole out in front of the house. (I will have to take a picture of it)
I love watching the birds. Yesterday we had color! Two red cardinals, along with their females (not much red color, and two blue jays were all in the front yard. I think I must of been a bird in another life because they mesmerize me. I now want a bird bath and another bird feeder to hold different seeds. One of my future woodworking projects would be to make a bird house!
I love watching the birds. Yesterday we had color! Two red cardinals, along with their females (not much red color, and two blue jays were all in the front yard. I think I must of been a bird in another life because they mesmerize me. I now want a bird bath and another bird feeder to hold different seeds. One of my future woodworking projects would be to make a bird house!
Friday, January 15, 2010
Hurting Enviroment
I don't mind using plastic bags at grocery stores because they serve another purpose when I get them home and have to pick up after Brier in the yard. That has changed with the new house. I find I can take one bag, pick up the poo, and then throw it up in the woods where no of us goes walking. But then the bag has poo smell so I end up throwing the bag in the garbage. I need a new way to pick up poo, and not use a plastic bag.
I do use my green cloth grocery bags, but I often forget them back home. The trick is to put them in my car for when I do go shopping. I love those bags since they hold so much more than plastic and the handles are studier.
*footnote- I just saw idea in this months Handyman Magazine to stuff your grocery bags inside of empty tissue box instead of throwing it out. That is double reusing!
I do use my green cloth grocery bags, but I often forget them back home. The trick is to put them in my car for when I do go shopping. I love those bags since they hold so much more than plastic and the handles are studier.
*footnote- I just saw idea in this months Handyman Magazine to stuff your grocery bags inside of empty tissue box instead of throwing it out. That is double reusing!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I could fall asleep right now (3:53 pm)
I think after these short weeks we have had that I am losing steam mid week and feel like this week is dragging.
I vividly remember my dreams last night (which may mean that I never got my REM sleep). I was first in a Army tank getting ready to level my house but I remembered that I needed my drivers license and Social Security Card to prove who I am. Then I asked Rick how to work the tank and he said something about "turn it to ash". I mentally remember the word "ash" but can't remember word for word what he said. It was so weird that I asked him if he told me "ash" in the middle of the night. Of course I got a crazy look followed by a snide remark about "ash" and had to explain my dream to him.
My next dream involved deep snow and we were out camping but there was no camper there only a car and someone was in the car sleeping in my blue sleeping bag.
The final dream I can also vividly remember I was on a set of beautiful long marble stairs and there was a Spanish male dancer off in the distance dancing ballet alone in a dim lit hall. From the stairs I could look over the balconey and see him dancing. It was just the two of us at first and I was crying watching him because it was his last performance. He was sick and would die soon. I remember his family coming down the staircase next to me and they were all speaking Spanish so I could not understand them. The dancer from the hall floor said something up to them and they all turned to me smiling. It was if he just told them we were engaged or something.
No I am not having an affair with a Spanish guy but what vivid dreams.
I vividly remember my dreams last night (which may mean that I never got my REM sleep). I was first in a Army tank getting ready to level my house but I remembered that I needed my drivers license and Social Security Card to prove who I am. Then I asked Rick how to work the tank and he said something about "turn it to ash". I mentally remember the word "ash" but can't remember word for word what he said. It was so weird that I asked him if he told me "ash" in the middle of the night. Of course I got a crazy look followed by a snide remark about "ash" and had to explain my dream to him.
My next dream involved deep snow and we were out camping but there was no camper there only a car and someone was in the car sleeping in my blue sleeping bag.
The final dream I can also vividly remember I was on a set of beautiful long marble stairs and there was a Spanish male dancer off in the distance dancing ballet alone in a dim lit hall. From the stairs I could look over the balconey and see him dancing. It was just the two of us at first and I was crying watching him because it was his last performance. He was sick and would die soon. I remember his family coming down the staircase next to me and they were all speaking Spanish so I could not understand them. The dancer from the hall floor said something up to them and they all turned to me smiling. It was if he just told them we were engaged or something.
No I am not having an affair with a Spanish guy but what vivid dreams.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Resolution continued
I was doing laundry last night and found my fortune cookie paper in my jeans. We went out to Mr. Fongs Chinese Restuarant on Saturday. It is no where near as good as Hunan K and is in a strip mall. All Chinese restaurants in this area are either in strip malls as take out or buffet style restaurants. We haven't found a good sit down meal one yet.
Anyway...
My fortune read, " Adjust finances- make budgets, to improve your financial standing." So it got me to think of what I wrote in this blog about my resolution. I really have to stick to this money/budget thing. I just need to get a handle of what comes in, and what goes out.
Anyway...
My fortune read, " Adjust finances- make budgets, to improve your financial standing." So it got me to think of what I wrote in this blog about my resolution. I really have to stick to this money/budget thing. I just need to get a handle of what comes in, and what goes out.
Monday, January 4, 2010
New Year's Resolution
Why should I make one when I never fulfill what I say anyway?
I could say that this is the year that I will lose the weight. Yeah right, or I could say my New Year's resolution is to get more financially on track but it is hard when R is still unemployed. The good news on that front is that there was an article in the local GoUpstate newspaper that said there is a shortage of welders and graduates of the welding program he is attending at SCC Development Center in Union, they can typically make between $17 to $20 an hour with one graduate earning $28.00.
Then I remembered what Robbie told R during the Christmas party. I am looking forwrd to the say that our financial future is more solid. My 95' Ford Taurus is still trudging along (Thank God) but I would really like a new car. Hopefully 2010 will be prosperous for everyone but my New Year's resolution is to try to use my checkbook more, instead of depending on online banking.
I could say that this is the year that I will lose the weight. Yeah right, or I could say my New Year's resolution is to get more financially on track but it is hard when R is still unemployed. The good news on that front is that there was an article in the local GoUpstate newspaper that said there is a shortage of welders and graduates of the welding program he is attending at SCC Development Center in Union, they can typically make between $17 to $20 an hour with one graduate earning $28.00.
Then I remembered what Robbie told R during the Christmas party. I am looking forwrd to the say that our financial future is more solid. My 95' Ford Taurus is still trudging along (Thank God) but I would really like a new car. Hopefully 2010 will be prosperous for everyone but my New Year's resolution is to try to use my checkbook more, instead of depending on online banking.
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