Birthday blues

Talk about feeling sad on such a WONDERFUL day!!  I posted last week how cards mean so much to me.  A phone call from family or text messages means just as much too. But why would he forget? Is he that insensitive to my feelings?  Is it all about him?  Why couldnt he go get me a $3.00 birthday card that wishes me a Happy Birthday and how much he cares about me?  I don't know... lost right now.  Hurting and yes I should go talk to him but dont want to "cause problems" so again I keep the hurt inside and still smile on the outside.  It keeps building up that one day I am going to blow...and its not going to be pretty.
Please God watch over and protect me... keep me safe and give me peace.