It has been a year since I was in hospital last year getting my first chemo for Non- Hodgkins Lymphoma. I saw the test results on MyChart from last scan and shows I am still clear from cancer.
I just need to confirm it with Dr. Buck. For now, I feel like a different person. I am feeling different spiritually, physically and emotionally.
Spiritually I know prayers are what lifted me and cured me. I could feel the lift. I also know that with prayers said from family and friends, that they were heard. I had three saints that I prayed to send prayers directly to my heavenly Father. I know that I received a miracle.
Physically I am 100% better on that I have more energy now. I still feel old sometimes like after working hard, body needs to stop and relax. I want to do as many things now as I can do. I do not have a bucket list but the only thing I really want to do is live life! Maybe even dream of traveling to Ireland so get my passbook ready! What other dreams should I try to make come true? I have no aspirations or goals.
Emotionally I am still lost. I am not the same and know that there was something in me that is now cured. I know this seems crazy but there was a pre-cancer me and now an after-cancer me.
Hard to explain that the person who I was in April last year, is not the same person I am today.
Did Chemo change me? How did it affect me. I know that there are post symptoms like chemo hair, lots of curls and memory chemo fog.
I told Rick that I am scared it will come back again. Rick said, “what if it doesn’t”? That is the positive attitude I need to keep. All the positive vibes, prayers and miracles always lift my life UP.
Once Dr. Buck clears me at next appointment then I know I am in the clear. I still need my port out for my shooting shoulder. All that is all I need for now.
